• Marianne Boruch

Backdrop and reason

 

During late summer into winter, March through July 2019, an enormous privilege befell me: I spent five months observing the astonishing wildlife of Australia to prepare to write a sequence of poems. To that end, and as an American Fulbright Senior Scholar, I was welcomed into the International Poetry Studies Institute at the University of Canberra while also — with my husband — volunteering at Tidbinbilla, that cherished nature reserve, and briefly at ACT Wildlife to help bottle-feed orphaned joeys. Elsewhere I was engaged in conversations with poets and wildlife people throughout the country, including the Outback.

 

The ‘neo-ancient/medieval bestiary’ I sought to write from this rich experience is now complete, a book-length sequence. Its recounting kept adding up: a look at underwater wonders two hours offshore from Port Douglas; the thousands, if not millions of termite palaces in Western Australia and the Northern Territory; the way a museum taxidermist re-ups a young Red Kangaroo from the 1930s with new wire and foam. My mind was blown again and again.

 

Yet as those poems of the natural world made it to the page mainly during the months after, half a world and an ocean away, stranger things began to happen. In some cases as I wrote, the animals themselves began to speak, among them an emu — hit by a reckless driver in the Outback — back from the dead three times in the book to mull its fate and ours; a koala angered enough at human naiveté to set the record straight, a fiercely unrepentant Crown-of-Thorns starfish defending its reef-destroying hungers. Other points to pin down my species and time travel: Pliny’s first bestiary, his 37-book Historia Naturalis, the annoying smart-ass intrusions of one snarky archangel who in the end only wishes to be a sulphur-crested cockatoo, the human history of Australia including an Indigenous Elder’s advice sometimes getting through my thick head.

 

It was scary and thrilling to write these poems; I was stunned by what they unfolded. The me in all of it began to shrink accordingly. I’m not sure how much is diatribe or manifesto in this work but perhaps some of the pieces go back to a universal ache and rage and loss, certainly among the ancient reasons for poetry.

 

As I wrote through the American fall and winter, friends in Canberra and elsewhere sent me deeply unnerving emails about the great fires that had started shortly after we left at the beginning of August. That is a story best left to Australian poets. But the smoke and heat — and tragedy, both human and animal — haunt these poems regardless. The bushfires’ effect was a worldwide grief. And go well beyond climate change’s roster of what has perished and what has not — yet.

 

Last June I turned 70 years old. I’ve written poems since childhood, such as they are. This oldest and most beloved literary genre still mystifies me. I know less and less what a poem is, why it exists at all, how it should be shaped, what exactly it can discover. I do know you throw away the key every time you sit down to write, and that the new wheel you could invent might crush you in the process. 

 

But it’s an addiction, this losing yourself to the world in the making.

 

 

 

SHE OF THE RESCUE CENTRE ANSWERED

 

first thing —

Someone is poisoning magpies. Keep the bodies

out of the freezer. We’ll study their livers.

 

People suck! she said, hanging up. But the Indigenous Elder

could have told me that.

 

On the wall, a poster. Bogong moths roosting in vacant caves,

loving the cool air. Migrations go haywire in drought. 

 

Another call: someone’s hit a roo.

The joey’s sweet but going crazy on the sunporch.

This afternoon, okay. We’ll come by.

 

She still could be shaking her head. Bloody drivers.

It’s the glare, she thinks aloud. They could not see to see.

 

Dickinson wrote nearly exactly that to

nail down a last moment, just after And then

the windows failed ….    I can’t tell cause from effect,

one overlay from another.

 

As for the magpie, its liver surely tried to clear, to strain

the poison. Fast or slow, I bet the bird —

how many? — flew just fine for a while in screechy loops. 

Then to fall, to try up again, and failing,

shiny black/white feathers run aground near the roses ….

 

Most raucous caroling in the garden, silent for once.

 

Is that what alerted the caller? Behind the house,

a sudden. It was vast.

 

 

 

 

THE CROWN-OF-THORNS STARFISH LIKE

 

The Crown-of-Thorns Starfish like

something off a holy card

creeps over for a taste of the sweet hard coral’s

 

every colour on earth under the sea.                    

Saint Crown-of-Thorns Starfish to you, it says,

 

so many want me dead. Here’s the divers’ clever drill —

 

Injected vinegar stops my luminous breakfast.

Right. I go rigid, then kaput.

My ‘forever enemy’ (gee thanks, Great-

 

Chain-of-Being), the Triton Snail also sits

on that jury of urgent-despicable ways to end me.

 

Thus the hate I hoard like a charm! 

 

Even for water those Tritons wallow in — divers

drop by drop that to herd

the gaggle of us for easy culling, the snails’

 

faintest scent shot through the waves until panic

drives me to those needles and cheap acids.

 

Oh I ache to be left alone to my own devices (okay,

 

I adore clichés) in these mountains and valleys

underwater warmed by human time and indifference

where I am nocturnally inclined,

 

my flamboyant spines of terror upright, off my 21 flattened

ferris-wheel arms to iridesce me purple by dusk.

 

(You like that? iridesce?  My new verbs shine!)

 

Toward supper too I creep and I creep (love that part, I’m fast),

then triumphantly lower my open gut to grind up

those Coral fluttering their hearts out. Yum. 

 

My heart?  There’s nothing new in the world

but the oldest hungers. Only three questions I ever or anyone —

 

Can I eat it? Will it eat me? Can I have sex with it?

 

Quiz: How many acres of your precious reef

do I masticate in 30 days? (‘masticate’ = chew, munch, crunch

in Spellcheck’s downhome options. Imagine the audio.)

 

Check me out, idiots: https://www.aims.gov.au/cots

Then give it up — my reef, my reef, MY reef!

 

As for my own personal predator, those ‘protected’ Tritons —   

 

going down, comrades! Their fabulous shells snatched

for cold cash. See? You can’t kick out every one of me.

Native Species! I’m born bad to these parts,

 

merely oversexed, overeating,

over-making more of me, and more.

 

I’m grim. I’m beautiful. As the world.

 

 

 

 

A KANGAROO IN FLIGHT

 

or bent forward, set to spring off bark

 

some poet cut, flattened out and began to paint

 

a century ago the Indigenous way, this straight-up interplanetary

 

anatomy lesson: elusive sphere of belly clearly in there,

 

skinny star routes linked-up and down the body’s

 

galactic interior, small planets blue and green for

 

brain, heart then the big clanging bent legs jet-streamed at the ready,

 

those little dino arms that could clip bloody anything

 

or chuck a wee joey to a pouch, once-moving parts frozen

 

in the painting as if laid bare

 

by the first oldest X-ray for the ever-after black endless

 

in profile: how I might dream if I were

 

half roo myself in release and let go of my

 

human-haves-and-never-had-really

 

better thrown to graveyards I whistle past,

 

why not, and leap —

 

 

 

                                                                                                                                 

OUT THERE FOR THE FAMOUS BALLOONS —

 

the colourful sort that go up with little baskets of

people under but we got the day wrong

or the time.

 

By accident then, because we heard it first,

a gaggle at sunrise, a cheeping, a gurgling —

was it birds?  Put this

 

in a time capsule: autumn in Australia

and a god-awful racket, all those

trees in the way thus harder to see, dawn closer

to dusk than you realise.

 

This isn’t story, nor metaphor. Not really

song either. Or a thought to be loved, handed down. 

 

When people say handed down

it must mean more than stuff in the attic

for the next generation to throw out.

 

Those creatures.  Gone chorus-high in the eucalyptus 

next to Lake Burley Griffin. But that handed down must

include certain sounds made forever

and onward as long as

we don’t burn down or sicken the world completely.

 

Was the Archangel among them? No, too self-absorbed

for that crowd though he is part bird as

he loves to keep saying. No mob of crows or whatever

it turned out, just the wily 

misnamed flying foxes

                                      Bats!  Bats in trees! By the hundreds!

 

Landing? Coming or going? 

We stood there, the way humans stand there

 

unlike Janus, Roman god of doorways stilled

this moment between wherever we came from 

and some dream-drenched next. 

 

Well, hunting all night is hard,

that god might have said, gazing hinter and yon.                                                                                                                     

I saw from the ground

bats wrap themselves in a wing-shroud. They hang there

as if eternally in wait

on graveyard marble. Still that racket,

not a dirge though no

people around creeped it up.

 

Just to be clear: Janus got stamped to silver and bronze

for centuries, his head doubled in profile

to stare left and right, no way to stop

 

whatever future or take-your-pick past.

 

A coin Pliny must have fished out of his robe 

looking down, thinking twice — both ways — and kept.

 

 

 

 

FOUR WAYS TO REMEMBER THE KOALA

 

1) It never was a bear.

 

2) It slept 23 hours a day in the tops of trees.

 

3) And children said: when does it pee?

     And grown-ups said: when does it, you know …

 

4) It was never not endearing.

 

 

The nerve of you humans thinking how I thought. Or if I thought!

Such a load of….

 

Who are you to write my elegy?  The Indigenous Elder was right.

 

Put this in your poetry: Let it be known

I peed via dream and dreamed

                                                 a future when I fucked.